Life Happens

   I’m in what my therapist calls a valley right now, and I like that symbolism for it, so that’s what I’ll call it too. What I’ve learned about life is that it isn’t linear, it’s mountains, valleys, and plateaus. So to put all those cutesy Pinterest sayings aside, I’m saying life kind of sucks right now. I’m not particularly depressed, not particularly anxious, but everything just kind of sucks.    For one thing, I’ve had Mono for about 2 weeks. Before you think I’ve gome around and kissed everyone in sight, it can be spread through drinks too, which I’m guilty of sharing. I know, I know, bad. I’ve learned my lesson because let me tell you, it is hell. For the first week I truely felt like I was physically dying, but it’s progressing gotten better. I’ve always heard people sleep a lot when they have mono but I did not sleep one sound night for about a week because of the pain.    On a less physical aspect, I’ve felt rather isolated. I have a lot of people who I would consider friend

Though I miss you something terrible, I know my choice wasn’t a mistake Because I’ve found myself in your absence And that is something I had to do on my own. I thought myself so independent, Never reliant, But looking back, We were so dependent. I’m not preposing you can’t grow with someone, But instead of having our own vines to intertwine, We bloomed together. Now I’ve bloomed on my own And love the life I’ve built myself. It’s not perfect, No garden ever is, But I’ve grown so far and the progress is all of my own. Yet with all the new, I still yearn for you. I wouldn’t take it all back, Not at all, But I hope maybe one day we’ll grow together, Again.