Life Happens

 I feel bad and I am pissed. I am so tired of it.    I’ve been anxious all day so I skipped my first 2 periods but I decided to pull through and go to my dual classes anyways. I got up, did my makeup, and felt bad. I went to class, took my notes, and felt bad. I texted my mom I was going to my next class off campus, got in my car, and felt bad. I could feel the tears coming but I had done my makeup and I didn’t want to mess it up, so I tried to hold them back. They came anyway, and I was so pissed. I was pissed my makeup was now streaking down my face. I was pissed that I can’t easily go to all of my classes like everyone else. I was pissed that I can’t just feel normal. I am so damn tired of not feeling normal! I just want to be happy! I hit my steering wheel and screamed. I definitely looked like a psycho to anyone driving by. I cried and yelled at myself and at God and at this damn illness because I’m tired of seeing my moms face drop when I’m feeling anxious or depressed. I’m ti

“Gay Pride was not born out of a need to celebrate being gay, but instead our right to exist without prosecution. So maybe instead of wondering why there isn’t a Striaght Pride month or movement, straight people should be thankful that don’t need one.”    -anonymous     There is so much discrimination against queer individuals, especially living in the “Bible Belt.” 4 in every 10 LGBTQ youth say they are not accepted in their environment and 92% of youth say they have experienced negativity about being LBGTQ. Being surrounded by so much hate can make you feel alone, but it is theroized that there are 9 million members of the LGBTQ community today. To me, that’s why being actively involved as part of the community and being surrounded by people who share your pride and your hardships is so important, to know you aren’t alone.    My mom asked me once, out of genuine curiosity, why gay or bi people celebrate it so much and are so out about it. I told her that it’s the same reason I’m